| american idol |
[Feb. 19th, 2009|09:15 am] |
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i am very upset that Anoop was not in the top three. I think its crazy that Michael got more votes than him...he was not very good at all. Anoop and Ricky Braddy did way better. very disappointed. |
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| so jealous |
[Feb. 17th, 2009|09:20 am] |
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I don't want to be part of the problem
I try so hard to get roughed up
Fists on up, it looks that easy
It looks that way to me
It looks that way to you
But then there's you telling me I can
Then there's you screaming say something
I want the ocean right now
I want the ocean right now
I get so jealous that I can't even work
There I am in the morning
I don't like what I see
I don't know how it's become such a problem
Keep you up all night if I try to remain calm
How can they ask why I feel so angry
Do you see my problem if I never explain it
But then there's you asking me how long
Say something, it's taken me so long |
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[Feb. 17th, 2009|09:11 am] |
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i was riding the bus on my way to work and i was thinking about nicki. then i just couldnt help but smile because i thought about Drop Dead Fred..."snot face grew up and got married...so that means you've been doin it like the pigeons." i miss watching that movie with her and just laughing and laughing. good times. :) |
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| long walk home |
[Feb. 10th, 2009|01:31 pm] |
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yesterday as i was on my way home i decided that i needed to clear my head and that the best way to do that was to walk home. i did not realize exactly how far that was or how long it would take. ended up taking my 1.5 hours to get home. and when i got to work today i figured out that it was 4.72 miles. you would think that by the end of my walk i would be looking forward to getting home and would be very conscious of my location in relation to my house, but i was so engaged in my thoughts that i walked past my street and didnt even realize it until i just happened to look up and see that i was at Wolf street. if i didnt look up i probably would have walked all the way to Oregon before i realized that i had past Snyder. i am astonished that i could have spaced out that much. Snyder is the only main street in the area past Washington. it just proves to me that i have way to much on my mind, and way to many unanswered questions and concerns that i really need to work out before things get any more out of control. i really need to get in control of my life. |
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| bored at work survey |
[Feb. 9th, 2009|02:11 pm] |
Something you hate about the person you love:
she is constantly unhappy about something
Something you wish your mother or father had warned you about:
credit cards
Something that's holding you back from achieving your dreams:
money, the balls to do something about it
Something you think you could win an award for:
being the most indecisive person EVER
Something you fear more than anything:
making the wrong choice
Something you wish people would understand:
if you stop bitching and feeling sorry for yourself, good things will happen
Something that keeps you going everyday:
hope that things will change...soon
Something amazing that happened last summer:
camping
Something you hate that people say:
not sure
Something you refuse to pay money for:
im cheap, so if i can get it without paying for it, i will. even if it takes a little more effort
Something you wish you could have told that person that you never saw again:
?
Something that really stands out about last year:
being broke, confused, and sad...bad year
Something you like that everyone else thinks is weird:
dunno
Something that makes you laugh every time it happens:
that commercial with the lady running in the park trying to talk to everyone about saving so much money...she is so genuinely excited. the moment she yells out "yeah", its hilarious. i crack up everytime (i did a really bad job explaining that)
Something that makes the problems in your life not seem so bad:
im still alive, and anything is possible
Something you listen to when you're in a really good mood:
upbeat hip hop stuff
Something you do when you're trying to calm down:
listen to Tegan and Sara and think happy thoughts
Something you do when you wake up at three AM:
look at the clock and be thankful that i still have three more hours to sleep
Something you love doing on cold rainy days:
play Fable II on my Xbox360
Something you absolutely love about that Certain Person:
Something amazing that's happened this year:
nothing
Something that you always run into/trip over:
the corner of my dresser
Something that irritates you more than anything:
complaining
Something you're addicted to/can't stop doing:
second guessing my decisions
Something you had to give up but didn't want to:
my dream of playing football, now that i actually could..my knee is too messed up
Something that really stands out about you:
people think that i dont like them when they first meet me, i guess i look mean and unfriendly
Something about you that's like everyone else:
i want to be happy
Something that you say a lot that others have picked up on:
?
Something that makes you change the channel:
sad stuff about kids
Something you wish you could change about your life:
basically everything except my job
Something you think about every night before you go to sleep:
i hope tomorrow is better
Something that you don't think will ever change about you:
being indecisive
Something about you that you think will soon change:
i dunno, but something soon or im going to lose my mind
Something that broke your heart as a child:
seeing my mom go through as much as she did
Something that really sparks your interest:
science
Something the opposite gender has complimented you on:
my ass
Something you wish that Certain Person would see in you:
that im sorry i was such an idiot |
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| dad update and some |
[Oct. 21st, 2008|05:06 pm] |
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initially, i was very hesitant to meet up with him. i did not know what his intentions were and i couldnt imagine that they were good. but, my sister had seen him a few times before i decided to go to CT to see him. the first time was only for about 5 mins. He drove my sister to middletown to meet up with my mom and me so we could bring my sister and the baby to my grandma's for the weekend. it was awkward and weird but it was okay. a few weeks later there was a party at my grandparents and mom invited him and we spent most of the day together. we didnt talk about anything serious just talked about what has been going on in our lives recently. he is very sick. he has hepatitus and is in and out of the hospital alot. he moved back to CT so he could re-connect with me, my mom and sister. he talks to my mom and sister alot. Jackie is up his ass which is to be expected because all she ever wanted was to have her dad. and my dad is more concerned about getting back together with my mom. but, she doesnt really want any part of it...or at least that is what she says.
my mom had surgery on her hands in hopes of relieving the pain and swelling that continues to occur but it just made it much worse. She got RSD which is something that people can get from surgery or trauma (rare) and it causes your nerves to send messages to your pain receptors constantly. and causes extreme swelling, often numbness, and many many other things. its really shitty. she is depressed, cant work or do much of anything with her hands and the doctors that she has dont really know a damn thing about it. they suggested putting implants into her spine from the back of her neck which is one of the more drastic procedures. they are all idiots, so needless to say my mom is having a rough time. i was told that giving birth is a 21 on the pain scale and RSD is a 40 something. i cant even imagine.
as for me, im okay. just working and tryin to be there for my family. |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2008|02:36 pm] |
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tomorrow i am going to see my father for the first time in at least 13 years. AND i have been crazy stressed at work for the past week that i haven't even had time to really process it. this should be interesting especially because my dad will be at my grandmothers house...the woman that refused to give me any information on my father for my entire life. so....yeah. |
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[Nov. 28th, 2006|02:32 pm] |
thanksgiving was cool. all the family was there, including my brother which was great. I havent spent a thanksgiving with him in a couple years. I also got to see him play football in the championship game against South Windsor (which was my rival team in high school) and they kicked there ass 30-8 so that was pretty awesome. besides that, the weekend was relaxing and spent playing with alex and sydney. I went to see Borat with my mom and brother. it was wierd but funny, gross but oddly entertaining. one of those movies were at times you think to yourself "i shouldnt be watching this..eeewwwww", but at the same time you just cant look away.
anyways, i am completely broke. i have about $40 in the bank and no job. not really sure how that is going to work out but i think i have a plan to make a couple hundred in the next two weeks so hopefully that will work out.
I believe i am going to stop smoking because i have become quite depressed and dont feel like doing anything anymore and i realized this fully over the weekend. I was at my uncle's house and usually when i am home my uncle and i get into competition mode and drink and play darts and foosball all night. while i was home i didnt even want to play at all, and my uncle asked me so many times, i also didnt drink at all. anyone that knows me knows how much i like to play and compete, especially with my uncle. so this was a little wake up call to myself that some things need to change in my life because i am really not myself lately. at least i am aware of it now and am ready to make some changes. :) |
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[Nov. 21st, 2006|08:42 pm] |
my mom just called me and i got some great news!
she has custody of my brother as of tomorrow. so everyone is happy and relieved that this four year process is finally over and my mom can stop being miserable and stop dealing with asshole lawyers and my asshole ex-stepfather. FINALLY! and tyler gets to be taken care of now and not be treated like shit. now he can have the support of the family in the way that he should have always had and hopefully that will help him do better in school and get his shit together. i am so happy! |
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[Nov. 21st, 2006|08:31 pm] |
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You are The High Priestess
Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education.
The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out. |
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